Real You

yeah - yeah - yeah
you all hear it all the time I'm ghetto
I'm gangsta chick you've lost your mind
shutup its time to unwind
Didn't you see the stop sign?
That means stop don't go
so I guess what I'm saying is shutup ho!
Don't you have something or somebody to blow?
What did you say? I'm sorry was that a no?
Wow I didn't see that coming
I'm mean you always have something to say
Its sex , sex, sex everyday
NO WAY!
Is to!
Those are your true colors, the real you
Its so funny 
I heard you like to be called baby not honey
I guess you just have to find out what you like
I guess you are tired of being called a whore
Some even call you a slut, ho and a dyke
Every guy you get with tells you to get out!
Drop some weight chick and take a hike
You try to lie on me but I'm going to strike
I will you'll see it'll be fun
It could be on a stormy night, fun, right?
You're just a boil, a blister a pimple to me
You are fake and you're a loser
You are a poser and this life you chose her
You are driving your life
You ruined it, used a gun not a knife
Its blasted away you derailed
You're life , you have failed
You broke bail
You're a ho, a slut and you smell!!!
I hope you go to prison or stay in jail
Or just go to hell
You are a perfect example for an epic fail

VeNdIcTiVe

I guess that I'm the kind of person who really likes revenge
I'm not the kind of person of will just makes ammends
Who will forget about the past and just be friends
I guess that I'm a little bit evil but I like to see people go down
I like to see when people who can't stand me see pictures of me around
On billboards all around their home town
It makes them mad I don't even have to make a sound
The picture speaks for itself it says look at me now
I guess they can come to my concert and watch me a take a bow
I'm all over the news and all you have to say is wow
I guess I'm the type of girl who will introduce you to my world
I have everything I want, diamonds and pearls
I like to watch my life from the outside
I'm so big that when I go out I have to dress up and hide
But this is what I chose so I don't complain
I sign autographs and take pictures because everybody knows my name
I get mad sometimes but I show restrain
I do it for the fans because they're the ones who gave me fame
I know I say that I'm vendictive and I know you think its lame
You ran your mouth in high school but now you're ashamed
Look at me now , you look at me like wow
Yeah man, I know that you hated me awhile go everybody knows
Don't try and change things between us now
You are who you are and I am who I am
I won't bend over backwards for you I've always taken a stan
And bending over for anybody is not in my life plan
So don't ever ask me to become your friend
We tried this once and it just didn't work out
So we're done now , I'm not here to be your friend and make ammends
I told you I'm vendictive I'm all about the revenge
If you can't handle what I'm saying just turn around and walk away
Because you know that I'm not playing
This is a nice town, and a nice house you can leave
You don't have the money to stay here now
You wasted your life away just to have a little bit of fun
But guess what? That fun is over its all done
I'm that, I'm this I'm everything you wanted to be am I the person you miss?
I guess I'm that girl, that chick, I'm vendictive some say that I'm a royal b....
But I don't really care some times things just don't work out they aren't fair
So you decide to go for a walk around fountain square
Guess what? My face is everywhere
Its even there, you see it flashing across the screen
You get arrested trying to throw cans at me
You can't stand me but I don't care
You want to know why? Because you aren't anything to me
You don't have enough money to even buy my cheapest CD
So go ahead get on with your life
I am busy with mine and I'm doing just fine
Being vendictive is on my resume its my job from 5-9
I'm just like that, that's just me
This is how I'll always be
Just vendictive, vendictive, yes I love revenge
Me and revenge are the best of friends

Warning

W  A  R  N  I  N  G 
  W  A  R  N  I  N  G 
W  A  R  N  I  N  G    

Hey hey I tried to tell you that there's a tornado coming through 
I'm like a volcano I'm going to erupt and take it out on you 
So tell me, when did you ever think that I was playing games? 
I don't do that, and just for that you should be ashamed 
Your family stays away because they are embarrassed you 
Alcoholic is their best friend, what do you expect 'em to do? 
They have you 
Counseling can't help, they've tried that to 
So now we've diagnosed the problem as you 
And now you're my problem to and this problem is going to end 
See unlike your family I'm not here to make ammends 
I'm not here to be friends 
I just want to say this is a warning for you 
I'm going to bust you loose 
Why? You deserve it and it's just what I do 
Don't hide from me, I'll come with a crew 
But I'll have you alone 
You're a coward you tried to call 9-1-1 
What now? I have your phone 
Your A_ _ I'm about to own 
I told you I was done playing and you thought it was a joke 
For you to walk away is your biggest hope 
Can't breathe , blood is stuck in your throat
Op, maybe you'll choke 
Sirens may come, you can't say this wasn't fun 
This was a warning so stay clear 
Maybe you should change your attitude and switch gears 
Maybe I'll see you in your nightmeares 
Or maybe you have nothing to fear 
Who knows right? Cry!! Cry!! shed a tear 

                

EMIN3M

EMIN3M I know that sometimes things are hard
Its like I keep running into walls
Every time I get down and start to fall
Your music helps me get back up to walking tall
I admire you for you
I have to say I love your music and I love you
Yes its true
I wish oh God do I wish for you to say I do
Maybe say I love you to
I just think you and T.I. are the best
I love your body, you have an incredible chest
"Lose Yourself","Not Afraid","Hailie's Song",""Beautiful","Love the Way You Lie"
Are so good , its like when I sing them i've been revived
And then I listen to "25 to Life"
It inspires me even though its about your ex-wife
Posters of you all over my wall
I'd put a hold through my door if they were to ever fall
What's in my stereo?
Your album "Curtain Call"
Number 4 stays on replay
I sing it and blare it everyday
How bout' you go on a tour and come my way
Or you could fly me from Cincinnati to L.A.
the bottom line is you inspire me
I know it must be hard being famous
Everybody knows what your name and what every alias is
I have to say that I'm a fan
I'm nothing compared to "Stan"
But I think you're a great man and a good friend
And I'll forever be a fan

RELAPSE

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I whip my pistol out / I hear people shout / I said I'm not playing anymore I guess you thought I was a joke / Not laughing anymore with my hand around your throat / Yeah you're scared you're about to choke / I said croke little froggy croke for me please /  I guess this is going to be a RELAPSE for me / you said that you were ghetto you better show me now / Your lights are going  out / I guess one day you'll soon found out what this rap really is / you kept pushing me to the edge of the mountain / I brought you with me drink from the dragon fountain / Flashblacks surround me now / +RECOVERY+ in my mind I have to get it out / I have to be careful so I won't get caught I can't stand to have this all in my hair / I may have a conversation /I can't hold back this is RELAPSE / This is my RELAPSE it's mine not yours/ I'm not playing around I talk run my mouth behind closed doors / I have +RECOVERY+ embedded in her mind / she remembers every move milimeters to seconds doesn't matter to me I take my time / I guess she knows now that I don't play around / I don't think she realizes I sent a warning out / Or she does and didn't care but I bet she does now because she's picking up pieces of her hair / Shouting as I run away that this isn't fair / I walk back to her house because these fists I want to share / Threaten to press charges ha I'm not scared / I have every hit named / That's not what we are talking about now the issue is RELAPSE / Its coming fast / The sleeping giant is awake and now RELAPSE is in your face

your hand

Hearts , *Diamonds* , Clubs and Spades    /   Hoping you have enough luck to go all the way    /   your life isn't a game, no second chances headed your way   /  you can make it or break it   /  Nothing can restrain it  /  If you get down don't take it   / Hearts are where the feelings lie  / Diamonds represent this money of mine  / Clubs a weapon to destroy you  / Spades something I just give you  /  You want to play cards,  great!   / You have a deck  / stop being apart of the living dead  / become something , stop giving up  /  I'm tired of the excuses  / Don't hand me that sh*t   / You have a hand  / play it out right  /  Don't take forever, you might not make it through the night  /  Do you tell your parents and siblings good night?  /  Do you say your prayers before you turn out your light  /  You got a crappy hand this is a serious game  / Embarrassed of your family so you want to leave and change your name  / so you're punking out and running away / folding your cards / even though you had aces and spades  /  ungrateful, ignorant child pick your shit back up  / go back home suck it up and shut the f*ck up  / this isn't uno get that out of your head  / you're in a playing field living with the dead  / you have some motivation when you get out of bed  / you have a hand, don't rush it, to get it out of the way/ be grateful that you're alive today

Mysterious Writer

I said when you read this ryme your head spins you can't comprehend time     *     well right now, your time is mine, I got you wrapped in my words   *   using all kinds of adjectives, nouns and I might toss in some verbs  *    You still are wondering who this could be, words unfaced, name unplaced  *    I'm in your morning pages, you write about me, good or bad , could matter to me  *  I'm a person , just like you, you want to know me     *    but I could already know you  *   I could hear your name around , you could hear mine , but is it the truth or is it filled with lies?   *    You want to know who has been writing these rymes   *   Do they get better in time?   *   don't look around, don't try to figure it out   *   who could I be?   *    not so sure I want the attention on me   *  Brad reads all proud    *   kudos to you man , talking all loud , McKayla up in the front, writing to Jacob, so adorable and sweet    *   I don't even know you but your poems make me think   *    so time keeps going, feelings fade away   *   I will let you know my name someday   *  I'm not who you expect, it might blow your mind   * but I will let you know, over time   *  I guess I should write a peom called come clean    *   And in it i will tell you this name of mine  *   Until then I'm just another mystery in your mind

Don't Forget

I reminisce and I cry  /  I think about the days that I miss   / I'm lost in this abyss / I look around  / people brag about cannabis  /  I'm lost / Sometimes I feel like I live in monotony  / But what has that gotten me  / Yeah I joke around nonchalantly / Never meant to make a tear fall from your eye  / I can't believe it  / so surreal  / what happened? Its a big deal  / You say modalism  /  gnoticism  / I just recap, relapse and reminisce about the times  / thoughts embedded in my cranium  / forced to replay in my mind / inner twinned together like a roll of $5dimes  / I'm lost in time , body , mind and spirit / I know you close your ears / you don't want to hear it / But imma' tear up these lyrics / To you I'm subliminal / To me I'm irreplaceable / You try to bring me down  / But I hold my head high  / I know its hard but it'll be all right / you forget about the past / the past is the past  / now is the present / 5 minutes from now is the future / do you comprehend it?  /  I know you may not understand it  / Because you're not very intelligent / You're more focuse on appearance and being elegant / you bring your report card home / the school calls you answer the phone / you impersonate your mom so you won't get caught / she has a cell phone / op / you forgot / you weren't thinking / wittiness doesn't run through your veins / relapse on the past / what have we learned ?  /Name your accomplishments in calls its your turn / Throat is parched / Standing infront of the class / back is arched / you're ashamed / you don't have one thing you can name / so lame / you're subliminal to everybody / thought you were running the game  / supperiorority on your mind / you stand there and say I'll spit a rhyme / you have on your baggy clothes / rapping to a class full of foes / you think you're good and you suck / everybody knows / embarrassment overscomes your face / to everything is a race / I'm lost but you don't care / this is what makes me give up / hands in the air / weakness consumes my body / i don't have the will to say this won't stop me / you make look down on me and that's fine / you put a poem up let me criticize your rhyme / but you won't because you can't rap / do we need to freshen up and recap / relapse / on the past / I'm BABY J / don't forget that

The Move

I know there's been some times that I've been kind of sad - I've been kind of mad - There's times in my life where I should have straightened up because I was kind of bad - I know I missed my opportunity because I was confused - see I didn't know what to do when I was told I had to move - I was sixteen and in my opinion I had everything to lose - I just wanted to make like an alarm clock and put myself on snooze - but then everything got worse - everything was getting hard and every night for a week I cried - I tried to talk them in to staying it didn't work but I tried - I had to go to Kentucky and move from Tennessee - I didn't want to leave everybody that knew the true me - But I had to do it because it made my parents happy - It was a struggle - It was hard there were so many nights where I thought everything was falling apart - I didn't know where to start - I guess with my broken heart - I guess they didn't understand - It wasn't in the future wasn't suppose to be in the plan - Mama decided to go back to her first man - daddy gladly accepted - then we had to move - Mama was a good girl daddy was bad always on the news - I guess it was his life - he was the one to choose - I guess he's always been a bad boy - looks like he's starting to settle down - Now I'm still not to happy about this now - I don't know what would have happened if I would have stayed - but I would have liked to have seen the future both ways - I guess it just wasn't in my horoscope it just wasn't my month wasn't my day - so I guess no matter what happens keep your head up  - don't pout - you can do anything you want as long as you have no doubt

+RECOVERY+

I guess I should really think about this +RECOVERY+ is this me ? / or is this all just really above me? / sometimes I get so mad I can't control the anger inside me I feel like a monster in +RECOVERY+ / I try to hide my attitude but now I realize I'm really just smuthering me / My anger is the real me / On the surface I say help me / But I really want people to let me be / You don't know how I really am and I know you say you do / well congradulations to you / tell me all that I do / I bet you know more than me / Tell me about +RECOVERY+ / Go ahead tell me about my plan /I don't know / Oh, I thought you were a big fan / I will tell you and give you a detailed description / I'm tired of remaining calm and giving myself a personal perscription / I have so many things that I'm missin' / so go ahead let the haters hate let them all start dissin' / Because I'm looking at all that I've writen / chilling out reminiscin' / All of sudden a plan pops in my mind / +RECOVERY+ I have to make time / You see I can't let all that you did to me left unpunished / I have to do something to you / I think about grabbing your throat and making you turn blue / See I don't care about your family and I don't care about your friends / I'm not here to try and make ammends / I'm here for me this is what I like to call a +RECOVERY+ / You thought you were so much better than me  / I'm white and you're white / This is my +RECOVERY+ of a discovery / See I dug deep down to find these emotions / And you there you sit trying to tear me open / I stand firm and I stand for what I believe is right / At this house there's going to be a +RECOVERY+ tonight / I know you think you are this and that but trust me you won't last / Everybody around me thinks that I have something to hide / simply because I don't follow every rule and sometimes I disobey and don't obide / so now there's a monster inside me and some say I'm evil / I'm not I get on my knees and I pray for people / Some people don't understand my venedictive ways / and that really is okay / Because I'm making a +RECOVERY+

My Life

Everybody is always turning around   /   its like they don't understand me   /  so its best just to let me down   /   its like they play with my emotions   /   my head spins round and round    /    the edges of my lips touch the ground    /   but no I'm not upset   /   I did my best  /  I guess it wasn't enough   /  I give up I just give it a rest   /    its like i'm heartless   /   i have no beat in my chest    /    i go back home to my nest  /   i know I'm  not perfect    /     maybe I should ease the pain and confess   /   no   /   I can't do that people would think that I'm weak    /      so at night I just lay it all out   / it doesn't matter anyway I have nothing to live for now   /    everybody that I loved is gone  /  or somehow did me wrong   /    I listen to EMIN3M and T.I. they sing my favorite songs   /   I pop in my EMIN3M cd when I get home     /   I put in "curtain call " seek to number 4    / then just for my privacy I lock the door    /   in my mind my fans are screaming for an encore   / so I put T.I.  "no mercy"  in  / they want some more   / i get excited  / then bang bang bang  / knocking on my door   / i guess my moment is over   /  i had my ten minutes in the light   /  i never knew as  a kid it would follow me my whole life    /  be a rollingstone or live the college life?   /   i want to do both its just so hard to decide   / take a record deal   /  or listen to my parents   /   be a good kid  / and obide   / this is such a difficult life   /   i have a lot of things brainstorming  in my cranium   / and or my mind   / i guess its just my life   / maybe one day i'll have 4 kids and to somebody i'll be a wife   /  i wouldn't trade it for anything  /  because i only have 1  / and its mine   /   this is my LIFE

Weight On My Shoulders

Sometimes I feel like I'm carrying a  boulder / Everybody looking at me / Weight is on my shoulder / Its finally lifting / The days pass / I'm getting older / Time flies no longer in the 1800's / Just passed 2009 / Ladies are no longer ladies / Got kids poppin' out babies / Focusing on being bolder / And colder / Chicks always have an attitude / no matter what always on the defense /smoking cigs / doing drugs / having sex / KNOCKED UP! / Then you're pregnant and you still run your mouth / Give me a hanger / I'll cut that sh*t out / then me and you can throw down/ You aren't laughing now / There's a crowd / wow / Sit your pregnant a** down / Miss I'm so ghetto I'm so cool / Say Baby J YOU RULE / Baby J you rule / So people put up a front / Just to come to school / then they get mad when people say they're fake / and they act like a fool / Because they do / One day they'll tangle with the wrong person / and they won't walk away from that fight / Lights out / Night - Night / Always talking about I fought her/ And her / I can take her / Don't point at me you can take me to lunch / You can't beat me up / Don't roll your eyes / I refuse to lose and I refuse to change / So guess what? / You're going to have to / Because I'm insane / You aren't sh*t / Look at you! / You talk when the teacher is trying to talk / Then you ask questions because you weren't listening / Dumb as a rock / You say I'm pretty NO! / You aren't you're a ho / so stop! / I got a new hair cut / yeah when I saw it I laughed / Now your head looks like a monkey's a** / I could be meaner but it isn't "S.A." / I could say "J.A." ,"D.A.", " F.U.", "S.A." / But I didn't, OKAY?! / Man this boulder got lighter/ My burdens are somewhat lifted/ Man I want to just get this all out / So go ahead say something now / I keep praying and praying for it to be lifted / Grant my wish Lord, one day / All you who have doubted me are losers anyway / I don't pay any attention to the things you say / My weight I carry everyday / on my shoulders / I think my blades are messed up / grinding against my back / I'm glad my ribs protect my heart / because everything is just starting to fall apart / But I stand strong and the weight is on my shoulders

World of Hate

This world is full of hate/you guys can relate/to the issue scattered out on the sheet/this is replaying in my mind and it has me drained and beat/in can't do this on my own/I refuse to walk this world alone/So I have the code/I guess I'll cheat/I absolutely refuse to accept defeat/Some have it all made out and easy to accomplish their dreams/Others have it hard and they don't matter it shows through unheard screams/you have to fight for eveything things aren't just handed down/if that's what you think you'll land face first on the ground/you have to work hard/go to school/get the grades/you can't make the rules/some don't care so they drop out and prove to be fools/they can't take the load/so they turn in their hand and fold/never to obtain a grey hair or wrinkles/never grow a day old/now that you understand the problem we're facing/the ink is spilling out of my pen/my heart is racing/all these emotions leaking out is what  I'm chasing/incase you didn't read between the lines/let me explain it so you can comprehend it in your mind/some of the kids feel like they aren't worth a dollar/if you feel the same way holler/people refuse help for their depression and obsession/so they turn to a bullet a knife, drugs and a rope/they think that they are lame but they're dope/they're always down on themselves they have no hope/they go to meetings for help now/its their turn to share, they choke/everybody is laughing in their mind/you run out of the room/wasn't your time/you grab the gun and kiss the world good bye/ even though you know its bad you continue to get high/i will not live this life/frustrations in my mind/even though things are hard you can get through it/don't make it your time/no matter what the world is full of hate