uncle raleigh

I'm in disbelieve
yeah I cry as I grieve
I don't know what happened but I'm scared
He was always the guy that was there
He was always the one who loved me and cared
The way things happened just weren't fair
 I just can't believe that this is real
 Its just so surreal
 I just want that hug I can feel
 He was my uncle and my god father, my friend
 This isn't how it was suppose to end
 I can't believe that he went this way
 It's not okay no matter what anybody has to say
 I wish that I could speak to him one last time
 I just want to get things off my mind
 I want him to know that I love him
 I say him as a dad
 He was the best thing that I've ever had
 I know that may sound bad
 Yeah, I'm sad
 I just want him back
 I'd do anything for that, and that's a fact
 God please give him back to me
 He's my uncle and he can't go today
 I wear a cross everyday
 And this is what I get?
 I'm a bomb, tick-tick
 My uncle disappeared from this world
 No longer here to protect me and my sis
 His son, his two daughters all his kids
 We all want him back, place him here
 Don't make me cry all these tears
 Him dying was my worst fear
 Now that my fear has come, I'm done
 I'm drained, going insane
 Guess life is a game
 I want my uncle back in my life
 I want him to know that I love him so much
 I wish I could have another day with him
 So these tears wouldn't touch my skin
 I wish he would never die
 Be my angel hold me at night
 Come to me, please, I miss you
 I want you now and I need you here
 I can't believe that you're gone
 I'm going to make you proud
 I'll never forget you, everything I do is for you
 R.I.P. uncle raleigh you were like my dad
 Best uncle I ever had
 Now I'm sad
 And you're gone to heaven
 on aprill 10, 2011
 I love you

hard

yeah, okay, check it, check it now
i have all this built up and it has to come out
it has to explode i cannot control anymore
i have to sit here and think bout' what i cannot adore
i feel like imma whore
you don't understand what i go through because i won't tell
i know that's my fault boarderline to livin' in hell
i need to bust loose and come outta' my shell , oh well
i want to tell you a secret of something that happened
something that went on i reak habit
this guy wants to just come in my life
and hit on me even though he has a wife
it just aint right has to end tonight
i gotta' say that in this tunnel there's no light
over this there can't be a fight
i have to let it all out and just put it in the air
i know that sometimes people just don't care
but this is what's going on and steppin' on my brain
its  like i have no conscious i'm going insane
i want to get out put me on a  plane
i feel like i live in vain
my life is like a T-shirt its so plain
so i sit there and think about everything i've done
i think back and i realise now it was no fun
i want to rewind and go back in time
i probably would have told just to get it outta my mind
he's the only one i can go to
the only one that i can tell
when he isn't there its like i'm living in hell
its not just oh well
its something i have to deal with and i have to do it now
i have to get it out, but how?
sometimes i go days and weeks without seeing him
we don't text or call its like we're hittin a wall
i use to be walkin so tall
now i'm not i'm so small
i want to be the one who gets back to where we use to be
i want that to be the only thing i see
i love him and i know he loves me
i want this to happen please oh please

my chance

you say you'll always be there
you'll always be the one to care
but everytime I need you yah turn into air
it makes me mad because it just isn't fair
it hurts me so bad because I don't understand
its like I go around with a smile on my face
even though i'm upset like i have no place
i keep pushing going at a steady pace
you can't understand why i say the things i do
you can't understand me because i ain't you
yeah its true
i regret some of the things that i do
maybe things are just mistakes and i can  learn
maybe i should sit back and think before i make a wrong turn
but sometimes i don't know when i'll get it i gotta be stearn
so i sit in my room after everyday and think about what i did
i think about what i coulda' done and why i didn't have more fun
i think about everything that strains my mind
and when i get done i can't do anything i have no time
my light is diming no time for me to shine
yeah these are all the reasons i sit here sayin' i'm fine
i'm wild i pick my fruit from the vine
i get my sap from the pine
but after everything that i've been through i still don't get it
i sit there and take it and say that imma' win it
but after all that i do and all that i say
people still blow me off day after day
so i sit here thinkin' bout you and all the things we use to do
everything just rolls and flows and comes and goes
everytime and everyday i know that i need to break away
so this is my chance