uncle

Let me be straight I put up a barrier I lock my gate

I guess that's how I am it's just fate

I can't change a habit it's to late

I know that I carry my pain in my heart

Lets take a look where should I start

I have all of this pain built up inside

Nobody will listen to be they think I have a good life

For the most part I guess I do

Except for those people who want to do what they do

I guess I talk to my uncle about a lot of my problems

Who else can I talk to? Nobody you're right

I know lately me and him aren't that tight

But if I needed him he'd be here tonight

I told him some heavy things and I guess its weighin on his mind

Sometimes I wish I could just keep everybody away

I mislead everybody with every word I say

I don't do it on  purpose well sometimes I do

I do it intentionally just to confuse you

I told him some thing that is pretty serious

He got upset, he's probably furious

I don't hear from him a lot

I hope he didn't do something bad

If I hurt him I never ment to make him sad

I guess the secret I should have kept

I can take it alone I would've wept

But I could have gotten through it

I think I can, Imma do it

But I just know that every secret comes out

I hope it comes out pretty soon, what about now?

I need some help explaining it and getting it out

Its not as easy as it looks the challenge is more difficult now

There's only one person that I can really go to

Sometimes I don't know why I even do

I tell him something than I don't hear from him for a long time

I don't know what he's doing, processing it in his mind?

I don't know but he knows that I need 'em

He keeps on and on and I lost touch in 'em

I lost trust in 'em

So here I sit his number isn't in my phone

Maybe my difficult times I should face alone

It's not like I can talk to anybody at home

I have a sister who likes to run her damn mouth

My dad will go to jail and my mom doesn't need to know

So where does that leave me at now?

Nowhere is exactly right

Go ahead ask me how many days of the week I cry at night

I don't know I've lost count

The numbers keep climbing starting to mount

I need him here and I kinda need 'em now

But right now he's nowhere to be found, wow

My uncle the one who was always suppose to be there

The one who said he loved me and cared

Where are you?

I guess something is more important to you

But you made a promise to me and broke it in half

No wonder there's no hope of our relationship gettin' back on track

You ruined it and stuck it in the ground

Tried to work it out and you're laugin in the crowd

Takin' snap shots in your mind

You can't even tell when I'm not fine

What would you do if I decided to cry

Would you get pissed and me and call me names

Because right now I think I'm going insane

I'm mentally deranged

Every word that I say you can feel the pain

And you know exactly why

I explained it to you the other night

So how come I haven't heard from you

I guess its because it has nothing to do with you

Sure you feel bad but it isn't you so you're glad

So keep living in your perfect ass world

I can't be apart of your life anymore

I am leaving I'm slamming the door

I want you to know that I left

You and me need to talk leme get this off my chest

I need to sleep and eat just get some rest

I try to express myself I do my best

I need you to be there for me give me support

But you aren't there you keep coming up short

Why is that it happens all the time

Maybe its me and its backwards in my mind

No, no it isn't me I know what I see is reality

I need you you're my uncle step up to the plate

Grab my hand , hug me its never to late

Because I need you now