hard

yeah, okay, check it, check it now
i have all this built up and it has to come out
it has to explode i cannot control anymore
i have to sit here and think bout' what i cannot adore
i feel like imma whore
you don't understand what i go through because i won't tell
i know that's my fault boarderline to livin' in hell
i need to bust loose and come outta' my shell , oh well
i want to tell you a secret of something that happened
something that went on i reak habit
this guy wants to just come in my life
and hit on me even though he has a wife
it just aint right has to end tonight
i gotta' say that in this tunnel there's no light
over this there can't be a fight
i have to let it all out and just put it in the air
i know that sometimes people just don't care
but this is what's going on and steppin' on my brain
its  like i have no conscious i'm going insane
i want to get out put me on a  plane
i feel like i live in vain
my life is like a T-shirt its so plain
so i sit there and think about everything i've done
i think back and i realise now it was no fun
i want to rewind and go back in time
i probably would have told just to get it outta my mind
he's the only one i can go to
the only one that i can tell
when he isn't there its like i'm living in hell
its not just oh well
its something i have to deal with and i have to do it now
i have to get it out, but how?
sometimes i go days and weeks without seeing him
we don't text or call its like we're hittin a wall
i use to be walkin so tall
now i'm not i'm so small
i want to be the one who gets back to where we use to be
i want that to be the only thing i see
i love him and i know he loves me
i want this to happen please oh please